{"id":109,"date":"2009-05-18T22:56:21","date_gmt":"2009-05-19T05:56:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.3-2-1-boom.com\/doctor-e\/?p=109"},"modified":"2009-05-18T22:59:14","modified_gmt":"2009-05-19T05:59:14","slug":"20-longings-we-cannot-articulate","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.3-2-1-boom.com\/doctor-e\/2009\/05\/20-longings-we-cannot-articulate\/","title":{"rendered":"(20) Longings We Can&#8217;t Articulate"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>&#8220;We will discuss it when our resources are not tied into this effort,&#8221; she suggested, coyly.\u00a0 I noticed that Doloise&#8217;s hands had a kind of violet tinge to them.\u00a0 Maybe she had been burnt.\u00a0 Mentally, I had already decided to call her family the Gillikins, but had been trying to avoid &#8220;Gillikins Island&#8221; jokes from the lame wisecrack portion of the brain.\u00a0 You know, the part that was caught up in all the fuss but was trying to shout, &#8220;La-la-la-la-I-Can&#8217;t-Hear-You,&#8221; because it didn&#8217;t want to deal with the ideas of just how far up we were and after all of that, no one remembered to even pack a paddle.<\/p>\n<p>I wondered momentarily if Toto was an analogue of R2D2.\u00a0 I focused back on the issue and pressed the point. &#8220;I want to know I have the necessary resources to handle this.\u00a0 I need a distraction for the main Power so that I can observe the portal firsthand.\u00a0 I may need tools I do not have with me.\u00a0 I need to be able to access them in a hurry in exact quantities.&#8221;\u00a0 I thought hard.\u00a0 &#8220;I may need physical or magical back-up.\u00a0 I may need to address additional resources, all considerations relevant only to the goal of the event at hand, explanations given but at a time of my choosing.&#8221;\u00a0 I took a breath.\u00a0 &#8220;If this is acceptable, I will see which is the best route for your Power at hand, and make my professional decision as to whether or not to strand it away from its foci or source or if we can push it back, willingly or not.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>She committed it to memory.\u00a0 Truth is, there are spells that can help you with that.\u00a0 Maggie said mnemonics were just magical shortcuts anyway.\u00a0 I thought they were a musical expression, but then again, I&#8217;m an undereducated dolt.\u00a0 Well, she said it.\u00a0 Once.\u00a0 In the middle of an argument, which meant her defenses were down so she must have thought that way, right?<\/p>\n<p>There&#8217;s a philosophy (Buddhist, I believe, in origin, but I may be incorrect) that suggests that you attract the things you need into your life.\u00a0 Sometimes they&#8217;re the things you need to learn, sometimes they&#8217;re the things you need to grow, sometimes they&#8217;re the things you need to sever a connection that will poison you.\u00a0\u00a0 This is made more potent by acts of will; 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